So many blessing have come our way since sweet Rebekah Elaine has entered our lives.
We have been told by her doctor that she is developmentally advanced for her age (great news) and she's smart as a whip (she gets it from her momma ;))
She has been holding her head up since the day she was born and she has been very alert with the people and objects around her. She doesn't reach for them, but hearing her daddy's (brian), poppa's (my daddy), and papa's (earl) voices makes her smile the biggest.
she has started trying to roll over. No big movements just small efforts from her back to her tummy.
She has almost weened herself out of her bassinet (its just to small for one little girl to move around in) so we have moved it out and the sit in bassinet is where she sleeps. This momma is not quite ready for her to be in her crib all night by herself. I must be able to quickly lay hands on her just to see if she's breathing (you other momma's know what I'm talking about ;))
We had a small visit to the hospital with Bekah. She was becoming dehydrating, fussy, and an increase of her reflux. Mobile Infirmary did a wonderful job taking care of our baby girl, and it was so heartbreaking to see her in so much pain and suffering. It was hard on mom and DAD as dad had to get off work early to get to Mobile to love on "his girl"! Found out that the pharmacist told me the wrong strength of her prescription which was not helping her at all! Thankfully, the nurse caught on to our dosage and quickly fix that problem.
A couple of weeks later we were headed south to the OBA!!!! (see next post for that trip!)
now for the most challenging part of this month. whether it is postpartum or what...i have felt like a bad mom and wife in so many ways. Brian's work schedule is so crazy that it is hard for Brian to see her every day. Many days I get Brian up for night shift and Bekah is taking a nap at my moms (we move in with my parents while Brian is on nights...its a scary place by yourself) Many days I don't think I can handle so much responsibility. Getting Brian up and dressed (did I do the laundry? I can't ever remember until he ask...do I have pants clean...umm.....maybe?!?!?!) supper cooked (do we have groceries...umm....maybe?!?!?!?!), Bekah calm enough to relax in her daddy's arms (did I bring her pasie with us...umm....maybe?!?!?!), are there dishes to cook on (have you seen my sink?!?!?!?!) AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I can't seem to keep up with anything these days. My brain is SOOOO not the same as before Bekah arrived! I'm more emotional, more tired, more this, more that, and more of a forgetful person than ever before. If it isn't attached to my head then I DON"T KNOW!!! Sure I wrote it down...but where did I write it down and where did I put it? My coversations with my husband are scattered and unfinished...he just looks at me like I have lost my mind...umm...maybe?!?!?!?! Nursing brings on a whole new set of problems...with Bekah's constant tummy troubles I have gone to almost complete pumping mode. I am no where near getting as much milk as I have been...so I am always never ahead for me to leave her for a few hours at a time. What's a girl to do? I feel so much like a failure!!!!....Pinterest helps keep my mind somewhat clear when I have a minute while she takes a quick nap and today I came across this ladies blog. A mom of 7...yes 7...has nailed how I feel down to a "T"...check it out!!!
dear sweet mom who feels like she is failing.
so failure turns to ...I can do this...I can do this...I can do this...can I do this...wait...I can do this!
below are a few pictures of baby girl from this month! another bad momma moment...no 2 month photo..oh well...maybe next month!
We have been cheering Uncle Jonathan on at football games and peprallies! of course it is so exciting that Bekah falls fast asleep ;)
until next time...Go Vols and God Bless your Family from ours
michelle
